Monday, November 9, 2009

must read

A story worth sharing4 years ago, an accident took my beloved away and very often I wonder, how does my wife, who is now in the heavenly realm, feel right now? She must be feeling extremely sad for leaving a husband who is incapable to taking care of the house and the kid. 'cos that is the exact feeling that I have, as I feel that I have failed to provide for the physical and emotional needs of my child, and failed to be the dad and mum for my child.There was one particular day, when I had an emergency at work. Hence, I had to leave home whilst my child was still sleeping. So thinking that there was still rice leftovers, I hastily cooked an egg and left after informing my sleepy child.With the double roles, I am often exhausted at work as well as when I am home. So after a long day, I came home, totally drained of all energy. So with just a brief hug and kiss for my child, I went straight into the room, skipping dinner. However, when I jumped into my bed with intention of just having a well-deserved sleep, all i heard and felt was broken porcelain and warm liquid! I flipped open my blanket, and there lies the source of the 'problem'... a broken bowl with instant noodles and a mess on the bedsheet and blanket!Boy, was I mad! I was so furious that I took a clothes hanger, charged straight at my child who was happily playing with his toy, and give him a good spanking! He merely cried but not asking for mercy, except a short explanation:"Dad, I was hungry and there wasn't anymore leftover rice. But you were not back yet, hence I wanted to cook some instant noodles. But I remembered you reminding me not to touch or use the gas stove without any adults around, hence I turned on the shower and used the hot water from the bathroom to cook the noodles. One is for you and the other is for me. However, I was afraid that the noodles will turn cold, so I hid it under the blanket to keep it warm till you return. But I forgot to remind you 'cos I was playing with my toys...I am sorry Dad..."At that moment, tears were starting to run down my cheeks...but I didn't want my son to see his dad crying so I dashed into the bathroom and cried with the shower head on to mask my cries. After that episode, I went towards my son to give him a tight hug and applied medication on him, while coaxing him to sleep. Then, it was time to clear up the mess on the bed. When everything was done and well past midnight, I passed my son's room, and saw that he was still crying, not from the pain on his little buttock, but from looking at the photograph of his beloved mummy. A year has passed since the episode, I have tried, in this period, to focus on giving him both the love of his dad and mum, and to attend to most of his needs. And soon, he is turning seven, and will be graduating from kindergarten. Fortunately, the incident did not leave a lasting impression on his childhood memories and he is still happily growing up.However, not so long ago, I hit my boy again, with much regret. This time, his kindergarten teacher called, informing me of my son's absence from school. I took off early from work and went home, expecting him to explain. But he wasn't to be found, so I went around our house, calling out his name and eventually found him outside a stationery shop, happily playing computer games. I was fuming, brought him home and whack the hell out of him. He did not retaliate, except to say, 'I am sorry, Dad'. But after much probing, I realized that it was a 'Talent Show' organized by his school and the invite is for every student's mummy. And that was the reason for his absence as he has no mummy.....Few days after the caning, my son came home to tell me, the kindergarten has recently taught him how to read and write. Since then, he has kept to himself and stayed in his room to practise his writing, which I am sure, would make my wife proud, if she was still around. 'cos he makes me proud too!Time passes by very quickly, and soon another year has passed. It's winter, and its Christmas time. Everywhere the christmas spirit is in every passer-by... Christmas carols and frantic shoppers.... but alas, my son got into another trouble. When I was about to knock off from the day's work, the post office called. Due to the peak season, the post master was also on an edgy mood. He called to tell me that my son has attempted to post several letters with no addressee. Although I did make a promise never to hit my son again, I couldn't help but to hit him as I feel that this child of mine is really beyond control. Once again, as before, he apologized, ' I'm sorry, Dad' and no additional reason to explain. I pushed him towards a corner, went to the post office to collect the letters with no addressee and came home, and angrily questioned my son on his prank, during this time of the year. His answer, amidst his sobbing, was : The letters were for Mummy.My eyes grew teary, but I tried to control my emotions and continued to ask him: " But why did u post so many letters, at one time?" My son's reply was: " I have been writing to mummy for a long time, but each time I reach out for the post box, it was too high for me, hence I was not able to post the letters. But recently, when I went back to the postbox, I could reach it and I sent it all at once..."After hearing this, I was lost. Lost at not knowing what to do, what to say....I told my son, " Son, mummy is in the heavenly kingdom, so in future, if you have anything to tell her, just burn the letter and it will reach mummy. My son, on hearing this, was much pacified and calm, and soon after, he was sleeping soundly. On promising that I will burn the letters on his behalf, I brought the letters outside, but couldnt help opening the letter before they turn to ash. And one of the letters broke my heart....Dear Mummy,I miss you so much! Today, there was a 'Talent Show' in school, and the school invited all mothers for the show. But you are not around, so I did not want to participate as well. I did not tell Dad about it as I was afraid that Dad would start to cry and miss you all over again. Dad went around looking for me, but in order to hide my sadness, I sat in front of the computer and started playing games at one of the shops. Dad was furious, and he couldnt help it but scolded and hit me, but I did not tell him the real reason. Mummy, everyday I see Dad missing you and whenever he think of you, he is so sad and often hide and cry in his room. I think we both miss you very very much. Too much for our own good I think. But Mummy, I am starting to forget your face. Can you please appear in my dreams so that I can see your face and remember you? I heard that if you fall asleep with the photograph of the person whom you miss, you will see the person in your dreams. But mummy, why havent you appear?After reading the letter, I cant stop sobbing. 'cos I can never replace the irreplaceable gap left behind by my wife....For the females with children:Don't do so much overtime. If you cannot finish the work, it must be some kind of problems within the company, and it is not your sole problem. Feedback to your boss. Endless overtime may not necessary be the answer to the problem. Take care of your health so that you can treasure and take care of your little precious.For the married men:Drink less, smoke less, cos nothing can replace your good health, not even business nor clients.Try thinking this way, are you able to work till your clients are totally dependent on you? or your boss is totally dependent on you? In this society, no one is indispensable. Take care of your health, so that you can take care of your little precious and your loved ones.For those singles out there:Beauty lies in loving yourself first. With confidence and loving yourself, you will see the beauty in other things around you. You will be able to work better and happier. Don't let your health be affected by your work or your boss, so nothing matters more than your well being.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

shalia's contest

Finally, inilah hasilnya......hasil keje mummy masa pantang kat umah.....hahaha
credit to daddy sebab the full idea is from him
n credit to abang jadik tukang amik gambar
lastly credit to me yang baper kali fail buat pokok tu....susah tauu...
and thank you for everybody coz habiskan cuppies ni....huhu...cupcake shalia memang best dan comel...

more details bleh refer shalia's treat blogspot...

Monday, July 20, 2009

Afifi at ManU Tour

this entry is dedicated to my lil brother - Afifi, who went to ManU Tour last Saturday... yg best nyer siap masuk paper The Star front page beb!.. poyosss

The Star 19/7... poyo giler patut la photographer amik...

From official Man U website - 'W' shirt - Afifi... 'E' shirt Huda (his aweq)
PP aku repot kat ma eh...!!

Semangat dia pukul 3 ptg dah sampai stadium...

p/s : ur abg ipar nih komplot with ur abang2 yang lain memang 2-3 bakul mengata (+me)... as we are a LIVERPOOL fan.. mmg tak pernah nak berdamai kalau tgk bola LIV vs ManU... WUTEVER!!

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

posing maut day....

hak hak hak...
hari ni takde keje....
sblom sampai opis hingga la dah sampai opis...
amik gambo aje keje nyer....
ni aksi mase jem kat NPE...
ni aksi terlebih sudah....
my buddy at opis....or can i say my loving bodyguard...jgn mare....huhu

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

alyssa ampat tahun daaaa....

I have took an AL just to bring my 4 years old doter jalan2 cari pasal...
she ask for princess cake lagi daa this year......nanti laaa..
this two weekends continuosly mummy ade keje laa...
nanti mummy free free kita celebrate lagi....ok


balik rumah mummy buat chocolate cake as requested by lyssa...
katanya kalau tak de cake princess dia nak cake brown yg mummy buat...jadilah..
coklat kek la tuh.....sedih plok aku mendengarnyer....
so mcm biase laa....heart tu dia yg letak...

actually pagi tu sblom jalan2 dengan lyssa...mummy bawak amni pergi jap 3 month old kejap...
mcm biase jumpe doc zue laaa....and guess what....???berat amni hanya 5.8kg....tak naik sgt nak banding abg and kakaknya....tapi takpe laa...asalkan sihat walafiat....mana nak naik..keje nyer tido je manjang...
alyssa's fotocopy....cuma in slim version skit....ke yg ni macam mummy skit....?? nak jugak satu tolong laaah....

Saturday, June 27, 2009

R&R at Renaisance Hotel - superheroes

Tahun ni berkesempatan la pergi R&R with Tm streamyx installer, macam tahun2 yg sudah kebiasaanya R&R buat masa dinner jer, tapi tahun ni management nak kan kelainan, buat Hi-Tea. Theme plak Superhero tapi kena pakai formal.....(serupa tak yah buat theme daaa....)
aksi-aksi masa reharsal, action je lebih.....
Makan time.....tak puas....maklumla baru lepas pantang...100hari pun belum....ais ngan buah tak bleh sentuh lagi....katanyer...
BAC superheroins
sempat posing ngan Ahwieee...weh sape amik gambar ni weh...kesian Cekda...muka disebalik tiang....wit super DJ....tu kat celah tu....

Saturday, June 20, 2009

ANOC bowling 09

Dengan menggunakan peluang yg ada nilah mummy pulun main sepuaspuasnya...
maklumla dah bertahun-tahun rasanya tak pegang bola boling...
asyik boyot jer...hehehe...rezeki..amin...
Nilah team yang kalah tapi tetap menang dengan gaya baju pasukan malaysia....jauh beli nih...boss sampai pi JB beli....
my lil hero yg asik nak belari jerk....
aksi before balik....

Monday, June 15, 2009

finally.....im back

akirnya...hari ni ke opis jua...halaaaahai...still in pantang mode nih...malasnyer....
help me pleaseeee......

aksi terkejut beruk la kononnyer...tq bos n geng for the hamper

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Amni @ 2 months old & daddy's bday....

Happy birthday to u...
happy birthday to u...
happy birthday to u daddy n amni...
happy birthday to u....
bday dad with kiddos..
amni at her 2 months old
kakak n mummy
daddy's
Our dinner
like father like son..

Saturday, June 6, 2009

azmil n yaya's engagement

Sekitar majlis pertunangan.....Azmil & Yaya 6/6/09
Congrate to both of u yer....
my touch....purple white with simple concept...
anak2 dara...kecuali yg hujung belah kanan tuh......
the moment....
well...macam biase laaa...alyssa n princess of d day....

Sunday, May 31, 2009

wekend report....

Disebabkan pantang...tak terasa sgt perbezaan weekdays n weekend...cuma weekend daddy ade lah kat umah....today macam biasa laa......bila bebudak ni sumer tido...mummy projek lagi laaa....
projek kek yer....harap maklum....im still in pantang mode...
3 kiddos with their bottles...zzzZZZzzZZZzzZZ
cake of the day is chocolate cake....

the final touch tu sape lagi kalau tak my little helper yg buat....dia memang pantang buat kek jer mesti nak letak 'heart'....

actually, hari ni a bit relax....tak macam semalam...schedule tight...
semalam bangun pagi-pagi je terus prepare kiddos. ..
Maklumla lama dah mummy tak gi window shopping live, asyik online jer.
Online tak leh pegang tak leh sentuh lama2, kalau jalan2 lain rasanya. Tgk dpn mata jer.
So destination semalam dekat jer Midvalley jer.
Sampai je MV terus breakfast kat padington, dah lama mengidam pancake ni.,abis pantang ape lagi.....belasah ler...
paddington house of pancake
mummy's

petangnye plak ayah long ajak makan2 hi tea kat rumah...
siap ada sesi fotography lagi...
mummy, daddy and kiddos
from left : asya atiqah, aufal, amni khadeeja, alyssa balqees
diorang ni nampak je cam baik...tapi sebenarnya10 minit skali gaduh....

Friday, May 29, 2009

malas mode


melayan amni yang tgh rajin melihat benda bergerak...

Finally Amni got it....."mummy....i did it" (macam boleh cakap daaaa)

petang nya tetiba terasa nak try buat peanut butter cookies plak....saja nak surprise daddy balik minum petang with a cookies...terasa macam isteri solehah plak...bleh ker bie...i am kan..kan..kan...
taraaaaa......

Ni my loyal little helper....
sungguh rajin menolong mummy kat dapur..pantang cakap nak buat cake...mesti nak tolong....

Monday, May 25, 2009

Baking cuppies...

Inilah sebenarnya projek mummy selepas duduk umah tgk asian food chanel dan pergi ke HOI.
Ye la since takde benda nak buat...boring jugak kalau tak buat apa2 aktiviti sihat....
dah lama mummy nak try buat cupcakes ni...tapi ade je halangannya
maklumla sblm ni kalau tak hantaran dan langsir busy plak ngan tudung....
lagipun saje nak test creativity buat deco cupcakes ni... mana tau bleh market plak...hehehe
tapi ternyata...memang tak kreatif pun...setakat buat makan sendiri boleh laa...
"dah dah la....semua nak sapu....menjahit memasak....awak menjahit je laa...."said daddy

The colours

My little helper

The result....kelakar jer Bie....hahaha...takpe laa...biar saya menjahit je laa....

while Amni...zzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz

Aidan plak hantar school sebab teacher ila dia dah rindu sangat nak jumpa...since almost sebulan tak hantar nursery....

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Balik kg selayang

Hari ni, daddy ajak jalan2 ke selayang, Amni tak pernah jumpa nenek alang dia kat selayang.

Lagipun banyak jugak aktiviti nak buat kat selayang nih, nak gi kedai ubat laa, nak gi pasar la, itu la ini la. Yang pasti mummy nak singah HOI je kejap (kejap ke bie? gile la masuk dalam tuh, jakun) sejak jadi suri rumah nih macam2 projek nak buat....heheheh

tapi sebelum nak sampai ke selayang tuh singgah OU kejap cari barang2 baby dengan breakfast.




Amni yang dah boleh bukak mata besar skit...kalau tak sepet je mata dia...

kakak n abang... abang tuh baru potong rambut,tu yg togel terus kepala dia...


hmm....budak yang obsess dengan Princess Liana (Barbie :Diamond Castle) sempat pow daddy beli idaman hatinya....sib baik skang ada less...kalau tak mana daddy nak beli....lagipun dah lama sangat she wish for the Princess Liana ni, so untuk menguatkan azam dia we promise kalau dah boleh tulis a-z baru boleh.